Today I Am Weary

Today, I am weary.

I am weary from restless nights.

I am weary from waking early.

I am weary from working full-time and cooking and cleaning and all the things.

I am weary from constant worry about one of my children.

I am weary from all that comes with having a daughter who is about to graduate.

I am weary from arguing with a headstrong child.

I am weary from the constant motion of toddlerhood.

I am weary.

I know many of you can relate.

Today I engaged in a screaming match with the 8-year old (yes, I know I shouldn’t have) and I walked away from the tantrum-throwing 3-year old. All before 7:30 a.m. It was a hard morning of rushing and fussing, and feelings got hurt.

I am weary.

Someone recently asked what Jesus is teaching me in my current season and I’m sure I looked like a deer caught in headlights. If I’m being honest, I’m not sure I can always hear His voice above all the chaos that surrounds me.

Then. Then, I open my Bible and read Mark chapter 6. Jesus reminds me that He provided for the disciples. He provided food. And rest. And a break from the crowds.

I need a break but I can’t always find rest from all that is required of me. Or maybe it’s that I don’t always find rest from all that’s required of me.

Instead I stew and grumble and complain and worry and go, go, go.

So today I will sit. I will pray. I will ask for energy. I will beg for Jesus to take my worries and my weariness.

And I know He can. Because He is God.

Are you weary, too?

“Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.” Matthew 11:28